It’s just a blog-tastic day for me! (I started a blogger about directing Company, and wrote in it this morning)
But for this baby, I’m writing about my future as I see it. Funny, because as it’s the season of Advent, it’s definitely the ultimate season of waiting. As for myself, I’ve seen the past four months as a waiting period. Although I have work now, and fulfilling work, I still feel like I’m waiting for the sign that this is really the place for me to be putting down roots.
Truthfully, the one thing showing promise is my job at the church. While it started out as just a “job,” my time there has turned out to be the most personally fulfilling part of my life. I’m continually blessed that not only do I get paid to create music, I also have been welcomed into a congregation and into a wonderful choir family that is giving me the opportunity to really deepen my relationship with God. The only cons: there’s not really anyone my age at the church. This is becoming such an important part of my life, and I don’t have any contemporaries to share it with. While I feel this is giving me a chance to really listen and grow without any outside influence, I’m getting past the part of internalization, and would really just like some church friends. And don’t get me wrong- since most of my choir members fall in the ages between my parents and grandparents, I have this amazing support system and a loving group of people really looking out for me, which is wonderful. If it weren’t for FCUCC, I don’t know if I’d be actively seeking more permanent employment here in the Lansing area.
I had my interview at LCC, and while it was very hard to read the interviewers, I feel like it went alright. That would be another great thing for me to have here. I see a lot of opportunity down here, if I really get to work and get myself out there. The big problem is, I see this only in the professional side of my life.
Regarding my personal and social life, I see myself going down the exact same path that I was on before I left. I’m not going to be able to get out of my parents’ place after the holidays, like I’d hoped. I’m not meeting new people. And while I’m doing internet dating, I’ve gone out with a couple of guys but nothings working there. So basically, I see myself with some pretty great friends, and that’s where it ends.
It’s just frustrating that my professional and personal lives seem to be at such a conflict now. I regularly check higheredjobs.com, just to see what’s out there, and there are plenty of positions I could apply for (I really want to teach!), but that would mean leaving. Leaving my family, my friends, and importantly my church. I’m praying about it a lot- that if I open my heart and my mind to really listen, that God will show me what I’m supposed to be doing. That He’ll lead me in the right direction (I know, of course, that He will. Look at how much good this job at FCUCC is doing in my life, and that was totally a gift given to me).
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